The loss of full health was also a loss of identity and marketability because I deeply believe one can only ask for as good as one gives. It's only fair. I'm attracted to athletes with muscular bodies. It's not just the body visual that attracts even more importantly it's what such a body says about the mind: the drive to be the best one can be. I'm an average guy with only one thing that distinguishes me: drive. But once my drive can no longer express itself in pursuit of physical perfection due to health issues, how could I possibly ask for someone still capable of performing the kind of work necessary for a premium body? Like I said, fair is fair and you can't ask it unless you can give it.
|Not what I once was... December 2011.|